As you can tell from the tumbleweeds around here I’ve been incommunicado for some time now.  People usually say "life gets in the way", but that’s not the case for me.  It feels like I’ve run out of steam and all my words have just disappeared.  Instead of being frustrated it has been a relief because, in all honesty, I haven’t had much to say.  With no energy and no words I landed square inside the doldrums. 

Resistance reared its ugly head in many forms as well from late night revelry in Ybor City to "just one more episode of this Law & Order: SVU marathon."  Coupled with a heavy and ever increasing workload I’ve had plenty of excuses to slack off which is much easier to justify when there’s no fuel for the fire.  Consumption didn’t work (turned into distraction), change in focus didn’t work (turned into multi-tasking quicksand) and staring at the blank page didn’t work (turned into frustration).  At this point all roads led to the same miserable spot.

Despite this swirling mess of inertia I stuck to the few creative commitments I had.  I hammered out a long overdue post for RetroHack.  My Monday meetings with my new writing partner Mike Elrod continued as scheduled.   I jotted down spurts of words whenever a fleeting moment of inspiration struck.  All of these activities, minor in themselves, slowly built back the momentum I had been sorely missing. 

Now I have writing goals for September that are ambitious yet feel achievable, new stories to develop both offline and online, websites to build into digital homesteads and even creative partnerships which are already fruitful.  I’ve proven to myself that the old adage of "just keep at it" really does work.  It may not have been churning out 1000 words a day, but continuing with any creative pursuit has chipped away at the wall like a prisoner with a spoon. 

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